“My life before Christ ...whew where do I began? Well, I grew up in church and I've always known who Christ is and I've always been involved in the church, however even with that being said I didn't have a real personal relationship with Christ. I always found it hard to accept that he could and did love me based off of the life I had, growing up with an absent father and a both verbally and physically abusive mother , I didn't feel loved, protected, wanted, seen heard, understood or anything and in turn found myself searching for that love and validation in other places.
My true salvation story I would say really starts In 2023. I went through a heartbreak and although it wasn't my first, it blindsided me so bad and broke me down. I was desperate for healing and just to feel better.
One day my kids brought home a flyer from school, it was from The West Church inviting the community to come out to the Easter celebration that was being thrown. I didn't want to go but they begged me, so we showed up and had a good time. The following Sunday we attended church, we walked in and the very first person that we met was Ayo, he greeted us with a smile and a very warm and welcoming energy. Listening to the praise and worship team, tears poured out of my eyes almost instantly and I felt something of a hug and heard the words "welcome home" in my spirit . At this time I hadn't attended a church in over 6 years but I was welcomed by Christ and by the West as if I had been present all along.
My current walk with Christ has not been easy, over the past year or so he has revealed so much to me , one of the main things I've been shown are the trauma's that I suppress that he wants me to release to him. In my walk I have grown to learn Christ more and ask that he continues to show his face to me, I see in real time how he hears my prayers and petitions and comes to me when I'm in some very low places in my life, how I can cry out , yell etc and still be met with his love even when I personally don't feel worthy of it has truly changed my life. I understand now that I can't do this life on my own, I've tried! but I see he is where I've found quiet in the chaos, peace in warfare and rest in the restless places , with that being said I find it very fitting that I re-dedicate my life to him , thanking him publicly for what he is doing for me privately, for saving me when I didn't even know I needed to be saved.”